love is fading fast.
My flight is early.
Should i even bother?
At this point im not even doing it for myself.
Its kind of an act to regain my honor that was lost.
To make him happy. I just want to see him happy.
I have doubts he even trusts me though.
My mind is going a mile a minute.
Mari’s dad threatened to hurt my babe if he upset me or his friends upset me.
I don’t know.
I’m confused.
I’m dead.
hmm.
I’m sitting in this familiar but very strange house. Watching old episodes of America’s Next Top Model and just thinking to myself that I may not be relationship material anymore.
I’m selfish and impulsive. But to be completely honest a tad bit paranoid.
It’s like i feel like I’m not making a big impact in the love area. I love at the moment but I’m still scared and holding so much back.
Ugh I’m an emotional and physical wreck these days. I’m glad i can vent from my phone.
« Though beauty gives you a weird sense of entitlement, it’s rather frightening and threatening to have others ascribe such importance to something you know you’re just renting for a while. »
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When virtue and modesty enlighten her charms, the lustre of a beautiful woman is brighter than the stars of heaven, and the influence of her power it is in vain to resist.
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I love to draw and write.
I’m in a bad headspace.
I can’t seem to escape it. I can’t shake it. I can’t break it.
I’m just in it.
It’s a bad and scary place to be. It’s like all my fears, nightmares, and insecurities are here.
They’re taunting me.
Laughing meniacally.
Waiting for me to break.
Wanting to escape to the surface.
Manifest themselves into harmful habits.
